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Saturday, January 12, 2008 { 1/12/2008 11:30:00 PM }

lets talk about today! hah. lol random. anyway. today is really special to me. but i forgotten about it. i dont like myself. you wna know the reason why? why am i pissed with myself... cause.....

TODAY IS MUMMY'S BIRTHDAY!

yeah! im happy plus pissed. lol hmmm i still remember last year, i celebrated mummy's birthday alone at the chicken rice shop. she was shocked when she saw me giving her a bouquet of roses and present. haha. i feel so happy! seeing her smile. at least i didn't regret that. its a happy memory. but it end just like that. so fast. sigh. thats the sad part. lol XPP tml then i'll get a bouquet and a slice of cake. i'll try my best.

then again. let me talk more about today. my sumsung phone batt died, i couldn't do anything cause i stayed at my grandma house ytd night. there weren't any chager so i borrowed another sumsung phone from my oldest sister. the previous phone i used. hah. sooo i set alarm at 9.10am. i woke up at the time when my alarm rang.

i saw the clock in the room, 9.30am. i thought the clock spoil. so i went out to the living room. eh! how come 9.30am. so weird. i was like omg. you're kidding me. x( i faster rush but still. no use. lol i was about to leave then aunty came home and told me she bought lor mee for me. i was uh??? gobble everything then left the house. i was half an hour late. lol

met james, jaan and kevin. jaan follow me to the ticket office to check my ezlink card if its really spoiled. while james and kev went to breadtalk to buy bread as breakfast. then the four of us waited for bus8. just nice it came. we played seven games of 97. i lost. had to do forfeit. can choose one from three choices. i was about to do when..........
nic: erm sorry if i disturb you. (i was being polite!)
someone: oh okay. (a few seconds later)
someone: are you in poly?
nic: erm no. im still in sec5.
someone: oh okay. then still acceptable.
nic: (bubble popping above my head.) err.. what you trying to say? you tying to say me childish heh. -.-

i was like err..... thanks loads. went back. got nothing to say. so kept quiet. XP reached temasek polythenic. this is the second time i come. consequetive two days. lol today and yesterday. hmm anyway. we enter the school. we were told to go and collect the goodie bag. its a sling bag, inside there is all the brouchers plus a paper holder plus a notebook plus shirt etc. (: we had a tour guide to lead us around. he super funny luh. i stepped on him twice cause he stood behind me. he super silly. lol haha hope i didn hurt him. hmmm. he's a nice guy. serious. heh heh.

so we walked around. went to school of engeneering. stayed there for a while cause kevin was interested with one of the course. quite interesting luh. haha (: we then walked to the school of design. nothing much though. XP then we walked to the physcological booth. then we went to the school of business. we stayed there for a while too cause james, john, jeremy, his friend and me are interested. hehe.

after school of business then we went to school of life science. alright luh. then we went to the canteen. i ate yong tau fu. alright luh. talked for a while until about 2.14pm then we left tp. took bus back to tampines interchange then took train to the expo for sevice. met ruiliang, px,victoria, gabriel. went into the hall. booked seats, started prayer meeting then service. today's message was... FORGIVE!!!

*YOU'LL NEVER DO WHAT IS IMPORTANT UNTIL YOU SEE ITS VALUE.
* IF YOU REALLY WANT TO LOVE, YOU FIRST HAVE TO FORGIVE.

--- WHAT IS REAL FORGIVENESS? ---
#1 Real forgiveness is unconditional.
-> forgiveness is always initiative!
-> you offer forgiveness even though the person didnt ask for it.

#2 Forgiveness does not minimize the seriousness of the offense.
-> learn to respect forgiveness. meaning dont take it as a joke.
->do not hurt someone and say sorry, its accidentally when its obvious that its intentionally.

#3 Forgiveness isn't resuming a relationship without change,
-> saying sorry isn't enough. you have to mean it, actions.
-> its also resuming trust.

#4 Fogiveness isn't forgetting what happened.
-> its a very difficult thing to forget a hurt. if you say you're trying to forget it, you're actually focusing on it.
-> you have to refocus to another channel/thing if you really wna forget about the incident.

#5 Forgiveness isn't my right when i wasn't the one hurt.
-> you cant forgive a person unless you're the victim.
-> the words means nothing if you dont ask for forgiveness yourself. so dont try asking people to help you.

--- WHAT DO YOU NEED TO MEND A RELATIONSHIP? ---
#1 genuine repentance. for a relationship to come back. repentance means, change of mind & actions.
#2 restitution. you have to restore new to the old.

.we forgive cause God forgave us first.
.we forgive cause bitterness will destroy our life.
.we forgive so that we will also be fogiven.

Life is 10% of what happen. and 90% is how we react to it.
we have to set our priority right for year2008! most important vs momentary.
i've set my goals for this year. how bout you? have you set yours goals?
It will change only when our thinking change.

-- HOW DO WE FORGIVE? --
#1 you have to give up your rights to get even.
-> forgiveness is an act of grace.
-> unwillingly to forgive will hurt someone.

#2 you have to get boundaries.
-> from the mistakes you've made.
-> boundaries menaing walls with gates that only allows people who i trust in.

#3 learn to respond to evil with good.
-> do good to those who hurt us.

#4 Repeating these steps as long as necessary.
-> Forgiveness is continuous. theres not limitations.

after service. just rain finish. we walked to the food cout but the place was wet so we went to buy food then went up to the coffee bean to eat. after eating, we talked then steph, vann, ruiliang, meitong, kevin and i left first. supe rtired. cannot hang around already. Zzzz.